More research is need into the area of our fight of flight reaction.
I was told that most of my FM may have been caused because I am a 'guardian', I am great in an emergency in fact I perform better when under pressure.
Back in pre-historic times I would have been one of the guardian or protectors of the tribe. I would be on watch, on alert for any threats or dangerous situations.
Thinking about it, I've always been a 'what if' person. I can vividly remember walking home late from school in the dark, planning what I would do if I was attacked. I would have a plan of action in case somebody jumped out on me. I would carry a key in my hand as a weapon to buy me time, I would run and knock on the first door I could find which had a light on.
I've always planned for the worst case scenario; what would I do if I crashed the car, was mugged in the street, suffered the death of a close family member, etc, etc.
The part of my brain which prepares my body to fight or flight has gone into overdrive and now I can't switch it off; which is partly why I have difficulty sleeping.
Furthermore, I want to do everything myself, because then I can be sure that it's done to my satisfaction. I'm a control freak!
I can't say no. My employers over the past few years have demanded more and more of me. Every time they have given me more to do I've done it. I have raised their expectations of me so much so that I can't sustain the same level of 'over working' - I'm burnt out.
Thats' not to say that I'm not continuing to do a great job, it's just that I've had to retract my boundry to that of a 'normal' person. I'm learning how to do a great job but still be able to draw a line.
These are some of the things I am trying to address by reading the books recommended to me by my consultant; I'm learning to meditate to relax - I am re-educating myself.
This is the part of FM which interested me most, why are people with these characteristics more likely to suffer from FM?