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Newport, Gwent, United Kingdom
I have to manage my FM very carefully, I am a wife and mum of 3 kids, and I work full time. I have good days and bad. I love learning. This is my experience of Fibromyalgia, I'm not promoting any products, just sharing what helps me.

Saturday, 10 September 2011

Lucky stars.

This week I have thanked my lucky stars over and over again.

As we remember 10 years ago, and I see the headlines every day of sadness and suffering of others, my selfish complaints pale into insignificance.

I was driving home on Friday listening to Jeremy Vine on radio 2 whose guest remembered interviewing a lady whose husband was trapped in the second tower and how they talked on the telephone until the line went dead when the tower collapsed. It made me cry.

I've had a run of bad luck over the past two weeks, car trouble, kid trouble, a robbery, work problems add in the FM and you could describe it as heavy (!).

However, let's get perspective, it could be soooooo much worse.

I'm lucky in that I have a wonderful husband, 3 great kids who aren't any trouble (they're just normal kids), I have a lovely house, a great job, fantastic family and money's ok. Except for the FM we're all healthy, what more do I need?

Some people would give an arm and a leg to have what I've got!

I'm grateful for my lot, and even my FM is manageable so nothing's gonna get me down anymore.

It's not bad luck I've had these last couple of weeks it's good luck; think what could have happened!

Stay well.


Calm before the storm?

It's been nearly a week since my last entry because I have been away on business and have been trying to pace myself rather than spend my evenings on the net.

However, this week, I have driven around 1000 miles, dealt with the after effects of my car being broken into and theft of some personal belongings and my son having a car accident. I still managed to represent my company at a two day event and pitched for an additional contract valued at £25k (outcome to be decided), you could say it's been quite full on.

It's Saturday today and although I did sleep until 11.30am (I find I sleep better during the day than I do at night)  but I feel.....ok!

I'm not hurting or aching, I don't have a head ache and I feel quite alert (at least for me). Have I turned a corner?

I'm beginning to wonder if the events of this week haven't actually caught up with me yet? Is it too much to hope that there won't be any after effects? Would that be unrealistic?

I have meditated quite alot this week and I have taken three doses of migraine medication on 3 seperate days which helped to avoid a full on migraine attack, so perhaps I could claim to have paced well?

The jury's out at the moment; it's too soon to tell. Perhaps I've just been lucky, or perhaps I've practiced what I've been learning all these months: pacing, accepting, floating, meditating.

As Doris said que sera sera, what will be, will be!

I guess time will tell.

Stay well.


Saturday, 3 September 2011

If I Had The Answer...

I know we don't live in a perfect world, and yes, I know I'm an idealist but if I had the answer, the secret, the remedy, for Fibromyalgia I'd tell you all, I'd spread the word, I'd shout it from the roof tops. I wouldn't sell it to you.

I know we all have to make a living and perhaps the inspirational, life coaching and other self-help guides are a different matter; in fact I've bought and read many worthwhile books myself.

What particularly worries me is when I see an advert claiming to have beaten FM, 'I used to suffer but healed myself and you too can learn the secret' by buying their book or potion etc.

I have the best consultant I could ever wish for and if there was a way to 'cure' my FM I feel sure he would have told me and not left me in this condition.

So I'll continue my journey to ease my symptoms by whatever works for me at any given time and won't waste energy or money on 'the answer'. I'll share my experiences, good and bad, with you in my blog, and look forward to hearing what works for you and what doesn't.

Now, I'll step down from my soap box and carry on scouring the internet with my credit card safely in my purse.

My Dad always says that if it seems too good to be true, it probably is.

Stay well.


Pacing? Who me?

I'm spending today in bed!

I've had a rotten week, from the car breaking down, to my boys being 'awkward', to trouble at work; add into the mix headaches, back pains, leg pains and oh so tired! All in all I'm glad to see the back of this week.

My stress levels have hit an all time high and that alone is enough to cause a crash today.

Ok, so I can either pull up the draw bridge, shut myself away and allow the anxiety of the week to boil and fester until I am able to get up again, or I can roll with it!

I choose the latter; So what if the car broke down; I got it mended!

Hubby can talk to the boys and eventually they will understand. Together we wrote a list of the things we want them to do (or not do) like not disturbing me when I'm in bed unless there's something that can't wait until later.

I'm good at my job and can cope with the 'issues' that have arisen this week and will still deliver more than is expected of me.

Ok, so I can't do it all at the same time which was the problem this week, but by Monday everything will be rosey again and it will be service as normal.

My husband has really helped me this week; he knows that to make me laugh when I'm in the process of crashing is the best medicine I could wish for. That's what I loved about him from the beginning, his ability to make me laugh, especially in times of trouble. In actual fact we're a perfect match as when he is suffering (he has health problems including depression) I can normally bring him around, and when I'm crashing he can always pick me up. What would I do without him!

Now I'm going to indulge myself for a while with a snack, an old film, my lovely bed and some peace and quiet.

Stay well.