Today I find that I have the energy and positiveness to feel good, in fact I'd like to quietly celebrate two little things.
Firstly, I went to the doctors last week for a medication review. I had found that my sleep was growing increasingly more difficult and as a result I am having terribly disturbing nightmares. I do have nightmares whenever I am under stress or have been involved in any unpleasantness, even if I see someone unrelated to me having a bad time, it's enough to bring me nightmares. But recently they have been unrelenting and very disturbing. It's always the same type of nightmare related to a certain period of my life; perhaps I'll talk about that at another time.
Anyway, my doctor was as always very understanding and has prescribed an additional sleeping tablet (Zumenov I think). This is in addition to the Amitriptylene that I'm already taking. She warned me not to take the extra sleeping pill unless I really needed to and wouldn't be driving the next day.
I took the first one last night and have got up this morning feeling almost refreshed. I think that's the right word because it's such a long time since I felt refreshed after a sleep that I might be imagining it.
Of course it could have been wishful thinking on my part and might not happen again; but today I'm going to take it for what it is and enjoy my little respite.
Secondly, which is a more worthwhile and long term acheivement; I haven't had a day off sick since I started my new job in April. Granted, I did come home early one day from the office with a migraine. There has also been the odd occassion when I didn't feel up to driving and my wonderful husband came with me; moral support more than anything, but it helped.
Not a single day off work sick since April; I must be doing something right!
The next few weeks will be a good measure of my condition as I'm already worrying about Christmas and the additional effort that I'll need, not to mention the additional money.
But you know what - I'm optimistic! What a lovely way to start the day.