I feel like I've not quite been 'with it' at all this week.
I travelled to Liverpool and back, then down to Bournemouth for meetings for 3 days and then home again.
I had a migraine in Liverpool and its taken me all week to recover.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm watching myself from a distance. It's like an out of body experience. I can see myself moving more and more slowly, mumbling over my words, withdrawing into myself. I have a really calm exterior but inside I'm panicking; not screaming, cos that would take too much energy!
When I get to the stage when I don't have the energy to smile, talk, or think. When the effort of putting one foot in front of the other becomes too much of an effort, I know I have to stop. I have to get into bed, cover my eyes with my mask, put my meditation music on, take my meds and relax.
It feels so lovely to totally, absolutely relax. That feeling when nothing else matters, when the stress and strain drains from my body and flows away. It's bliss. It feels like I can breath freely again, the weight of every day problems falls away, are irrelevant.
That's when my battery's recharge.
That's what I need now.
I hope you are able to find the same feeling of total relaxation sometimes. It doesn't always work, I have to prepare and get my mind into the right state, and if the pains too bad, I can't find relaxation.
But it does happen most of the time, perhaps I'm lucky? How do you relax?
Here's to recharged batteries.