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Newport, Gwent, United Kingdom
I have to manage my FM very carefully, I am a wife and mum of 3 kids, and I work full time. I have good days and bad. I love learning. This is my experience of Fibromyalgia, I'm not promoting any products, just sharing what helps me.

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Ambition or Acceptance?

My husbands ambitious; he's never satisfied with his 'lot'. He's always finding imaginitive ways to push himself further. Sometimes he's successful and sometimes he's not, but he never gives up.

He runs his own business and he does have times when he feels like he's not getting anywhere but before long he finds another bout of energy and another idea to push ahead with.

I used to be the same; I wanted a high powered job, I wanted to be successful and in control but thanks to FM am having to learn another way of life. Acceptance!

It's somewhere between fighting and giving in. I can't fight it because that uses up valuable energy and doesn't get me anywhere. On the other hand I can't give in to it either. I'm not the sort of person to lay down and give up and I never will be.

However, I'm learning my limitations. On a good day I know I can work and drive and chair important business meetings, on a bad day I know I have to allow the FM to run it's course and maybe stay in bed.

That's not giving in, it's just letting go for a short time. I know it will pass when I'm having a bad day, so I have to accept that today's not going to be a good one and accept that I might have pain but I know that it will go away.

Sometimes I need my husband to remind me but most of the time I know that eventually the bad day will pass and I'll feel better again.

Bring on tomorrow!

Saturday, 15 October 2011

Fraught festivities.

Over exertion has left me jaded. Daughters 21st birthday weekend, house guests, heavy meetings at work and general day to day chores and all of a sudden I'm out of energy.
So now I'm wondering how I'm going to cope with Christmas! There's no option this year I'm going to have to be super organised.

It always amazes me that just when I want to be ok; like when I've got time off work, or when there's a party or something special organised I get ill. For the past two Christmases I've either had a bad bout of flu or a nasty viral infection and have been out of action.

Last year hubby not only had to do all the present shopping in the lead up to Christmas but he also had to do the food shopping and cook the Christmas dinner. I'm so lucky to have him!

So this year, I'm starting early, I want all the presents bought by the end of this month, then I'll plan the meals and the table and spend November organising the bits and pieces in advance.

That will leave me only the food to do before hand. I shall not be making my own cards this year as that adds unneccessary pressure to my load (even though I do enjoy it).

So watch this space, and I'll let you know how my plan is progressing..... the count down has started!